I realize that I haven’t posted here for awhile. For quite some time, I’ve just been running quietly in the background, reading along with my favorite running mommies. I haven’t had a whole lot of time for the training, but I run for the peace that it gives me. I run for the emotional and physical boost that it gives me. I run because it’s almost like my form of meditation…it’s my time. I’m posting these running affirmations mostly for me. Right now, as I prepare for an upcoming, idle bittle (but fun!) 5k, I needed a little reminder.
You see, I have a person in my life who creates a certain amount of negativity in my life. I’m doing better and better each day at not letting the negativity affect me, but I have my human moments where I falter and it gets to me. Bah humbug and all that. The only reason I’m bringing this up here is because this negativity has tarnished my love for running in a way.
I’m a slow runner. This doesn’t bother me because I know the more I stick with this running gig, I KNOW that I will improve in all areas. I was never a runner before a little over a year ago. No really, I HATED running before that. So I think that I can totally be okay with the slow running business because OH MY HECK! I’m running! I can even call myself a runner! That alone is amazing to me.
This negative person in my life has been a long-time runner. For as much running as this person does, it surprises me that they had never participated in any sort of event or race. At least not until I talked this person into it this summer. What can I say? This person often talks about wanting people to run with, and I thought this would be a nice thing…oh, and also because I’m totally a glutton for punishment. I must be! And here is where I have to lay it all out on the table. Don’t worry, I’ll be quick. (With the typing and story-telling, I mean.)
Where my running has always been just for me, this person has made me feel bad about how I run and, well, how slow I am. I am made to feel like I need a reason why I am so slow, etc. This person is all about being the best and fastest and “did you see what place I came in for my age bracket?” Yikes. That is not me. That is not my style. And this weekend, I will be running…and so will she. Taking a bit of wind out of my sails as she goes.
I know this doesn’t sound like something that is usually posted here, but I guess I just needed to hear from my favorite running mamas about how they keep running so special. What do you do when negativity rears it’s ugly head? This has always been so personal to me, how do I return it to that glory? Running is my “happy place” and I don’t want anyone to ever make me feel differently. What would the Marathon Mommies do?