Hi everyone....this is my attempt to come to terms with my running abilities. I am a beginner. I am not an advanced runner - nor am I even a mediocre runner - I am a true beginner...novice to the 10th power. The reason I share this with you is because a few months ago, I wouldn't have been so accepting of this fact. I started running back in February - in preparation for a half marathon in July. I've always wanted to run and have had bouts here and there but never consistent with my efforts. I ran consistently through April - getting up to 9 miles on my long run. I thought this was pretty good - considering my first week of running I couldn't even go a mile. Then May happened. Got sick...fell out of the routine...and 4, 5, 6 weeks passed and still I didn't get out to run. Not only that, but deep down there was a part of me that was digging my heels in protest because I didn't lose one pound during all those weeks of running. You see, I have a good 15 pounds that I do need to lose. I thought running would help me do that and it didn't. I tried to convince myself that I didn't care because it was making me feel so good, it didn't matter. But deep down, I think it really did. Anyway, I finally started running again June 1. And guess what? It might as well be February! I can't believe how hard it's been to come back. I haven't been able to run 4 yet, although I think I'll be there this week. I literally feel like I have started completely over and it has been SOOOO hard just to do the bare minimum. This has been a little frustrating. So. I got to thinking. Maybe I'm pushing myself too hard. Maybe I'm trying to go farther and longer than my body is really capable of yet. I am really out of shape. I've had 2 kids in the last 8 years and haven't been active at all (exercise that is..). So maybe I should just accept that I don't have to run a 10 minute mile yet and maybe I should slow down a little. I have been pushing myself to be in the 10:30 - 11 range but I think that's just too hard for me right now. So, last night I decided to start off slower...at a more "comfortable" pace. I was probably in the 13-14 min/mile range. It felt amazing. I ran for 45 minutes no problem. My point is - I'm so happy to have come to this realization. Building up takes time and a beginner/out of shaper like me has no business forcing my way out of the gate and expecting to keep up with the other stallions (don't you love how I just referred to you all as 'stallions')? I've accepted it...and it feels good. Can any of you more 'advanced' runners share with us some of your 'beginner' stories? When you very first started....what was it like for you?
Thanks, as always, for your great stories and posts.